Time to Reevaluate?

One good thing about a weekend with your closest girlfriends is that it is a major self esteem boost. Not only do you feel sexy by association (seriously, all my girls are fuckin' hawt). But it's nice to hear, "you look awesome!" A couple of the girls had last seen me on Fourth of July and kept commenting on how much, much, much smaller I am since then. It feels good.

One of the hubs' friends joined us a couple different times during the weekend and once the Hubs and I got a chance to be alone he told me, "Derrick said you're fine." (Note: Hubby is not AT ALL the jealous type. He likes to hear things like that. Makes me feel good). That got us into a discussion about my weight loss goals.

I am 5'4 and right now I weigh 164. I wear a size 12 clothes. I know that I am not fat. Yes, I do have a very skewed body image, but I know I'm not fat. The hubs loves the way I look now and doesn't think I should lose much more weight -- 10 pounds at the most. He thinks 24 (which would put me at 140) is way, way too much. And he's afraid I'll lose in the wrong place (i.e. butt and boobs - he's a man, hell-o!)

I'm doing this for ME and for MY health, not for him. But he's one of the three most important people in my world so his opinion does matter to me a lot.

I am trying to decide if it's time to reevaulate my goals. To be perfectly honest, I can't even begin to remember the last time I weighed 140. Well over ten years and two babies ago. Maybe it's time for the realization that even though I am only 5'4, I am not built to where I look right at 140.

I just don't know.

Right now my goal is to weigh in at 155. At that point, I can reevaluate my goals again. Maybe they'll change, maybe they won't.

Daily Menu for Thursday:

Breakfast:
Egg Beaters
"Fried" Ham
Toast
Total Points: 4

Lunch:
Hotdog
Chips
Total Points: 6

Snack:
Brownie Sundae
Total Points: 3

Dinner:
Tilapia
Baked Beans
Green Beans
Bread
Total Points: 6

Snack:
Hershey's Stick
Total Points: 1

Total Daily Points: 20